Well despite our best efforts to keep her a baby, this one has insisted on turning FOUR today 😭
Annabelle, you never cease to amaze us. You are confident, intelligent, and you keep us humble. Parenting you has been equal parts challenging and amazing. I can already see so many qualities that God carefully sewed into you before you were born. I can’t wait to see the impact you make on the world... you’ve already changed our lives forever.
You will always be our little booey... but it has been such a joy to watch you grow.
You are perfectly loved, completely accepted for who you are, and no doubt you are fearfully and wonderfully made ❤️ Happy Birthday sweet girl.
Here’s how I know God loves a good ironic moment.
This verse is tattooed on my side.. it’s the verse that has served as an anchor point throughout my whole life. It pops up in the most random moments. God has used it to call me out, to build me up, to share truths with me.
And yet. It’s the verse I struggle with the most. Because if I’m honest, I often don’t believe it.
I’m currently working through a personality study with my small group and it’s teasing out some really deep seeded stuff I’ve been conveniently avoiding. Like how self conscious I am of my personality. Or how hurt I’ve been in the past from comments about how I’m “bossy” or “harsh” or “mean”. I’ve claimed to be proud of my “strong” personality. But the truth is- i would give anything to be soft and fuzzy. I wish I was nicer and less dominant.
If only it were that simple. If only we could re-wire ourselves. Wouldn’t that solve so many problems? But the truth is, we were knit together in a specific way for a specific purpose. And we don’t get to choose our wiring.
So, here I go.. down the rabbit hole. I low key want to quit my small group and hide until they’re done with this study. But- of course- I’m a group leader (because obviously) so i can’t run.
That tricky God... always making me face my deepest fears and insecurities.... 😐
